I hate projects.
I hate coming to school when we actually were told not to.

& I hate people like you. People that say one thing & do another. FUCK YOU.
BFit COMES INTO PLAY.

BLOODY BITCH TO FIND A CAR LAHHH.

I've already done whatever I could to be an ideal girlfriend to you.
I know this change & open-mindedness in me since my France trip is to your advantage.
You can now smoke, you can learn bike.

I've done what I can, & my conscience is clear.

If you push the limits, you should know very well,
that I won't hang on to someone that I feel isn't worth.


Luckily for you, my heart still says you're worth it.
The thing is: For how long more?




Working for an event on Saturday at the British Club.

I've been sick & out-of-play for perhaps...1 week alr?
Being sick sucks. You feel the world spinning faster than it actually is, you cough your lungs out, you have flu till it feels like a nosebleed.

Oh well, enough griping. I prolly should be glad that I'm recovering.

GOODNESS, but i feel so disconnected from the world.
Of course, besides all the projects & meetings, I dont know what the rest of the world is up to. :x

Oh yeah. && NYP will extend our holidays & implement E-learning due to the spread of H1N1.
It might seem like an awesome holiday,
but I dont think it's that cool.



I just feel that there isnt enough time in the world for him to spend it with me anym.
It feels like the past, when I was sick & nth was done.

I'm so tired, I dont feel like apologizing for the lack of updates.
One phrase to explain:
Freaking motherboard gave up on me.

Heading to M'sia tmrw, so just be patient till Sunday. :D

I've finally managed to complete my MCE report after so many days of chionging.

Okay, it wasn't really chionging.
I started on Monday night, & slowly took my time to do the journals + PART B. That's a total of 16 pages of report.
My 6 journals, 2 pages each, were mostly about bad service encounters because they are the most memorable for the wrong reasons. With a "fishball mind" like mine, I can't rmbr much of good encounters. :x

I feel like a awesome superwoman...that's dying with 50kg of weight on my shoulders.

WHY??
Schoolwork @ Year 3 is really starting to tire me out.
Though I'm starting to have motivations for tests, tutorials, I have no idea what the fuck do I do for projects. SHIT.
There are like countless projects to be done during my 2week holi, so can someone pls explain why the fuck is it called "holiday" when it's like a concentration camp?
I don't even have any idea what projects need to be done, & i feel damn lethargic.
I just feel the need to camp on my bed. :D


Recently I feel that there are many things not going as well as I hoped it would.
I feel sparkles are weakening, the surprise factor is depleting.
People stare at me, & it becomes my fault? Why dont I fatten up like a sumo wrestler and dress like Ugly Betty. Better right.
I can't communicate with my sisters, & now i dont even bother to try. We all lead our different lives, and they both are equally horrible because they feel shiok to ostracize me. Fucking childish, but now i can't be bothered now anyw.
We dont see eye to eye as we all have very different personalities. It's frustrating, really. Sometimes, I feel like wtf. I feel ostracized, left out, dumb. Was it my fault that i wasn't in the same sch, hence resulting in you guys leaving me out? It happened there, & here too. Perhaps I might be jealous, but if as friends this is what friendship is about, how much confidence can we all put in to make it work? I keep telling myself everyone is different and our personalities vary & we should all accept each other for who we are. But when someones' flaw comes in to destroy a friendship, how much would you think i can possibly tolerate? I'm to the brink of fucking frustration. Who knows? One day i might decide not to be a sweet & spice girl, & that will be the day my patience has reached it's limit.

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My only solace because he doesnt make me mad.